Monday, November 18, 2013

Please pray for

Ellen's mom, people are pretending she thinks these different things.  I was in the room with my parents eating and like I said what came came, I couldn't think of an alternative because I don't trust there will always be a manufactured reason in the end.  I left, and I was able to think as I wanted.  I ended up hurting myself by accident, just a cut and a hurt bone area, my heel.  Other things continued to bother me, but I ended up feeling the pressure and not hitting anything.

Also, what is the strange feeling that something will happen anyway?  I don't wanna be the message bearer, and I don't believe it should have happened..  So, maybe it wouldn't have?  My dad is just so cooky, it gets me apparently in such a bad mood.  Supposedly, it would affect my future babies's lives.  He thinks the young girl should be like the boy to him, but he's lucky already I want my grandson to know him or wait his..  I didn't really wanna hurt anyone, but I didn't know.. maybe I would have gotten mad later.  I don't do this Orlando shit.  I mean, that's something they do here..  I was just already really, really mad, and I just had to get my thoughts straight, but I felt so agitated by being in the room.  I finally left, as I said.  Yes, someone did something, though.  If she didn't do it, of course it wouldn't apply.  If she did, I still don't really mean it.  I just was mad and finally was time to leave.  It seemed okay to do to anyone, but I know people are watching me.  If they weren't, I WOULDN'T DO IT!